Seven Poems for Him

It started raining

While I was at the store

I could hear it

Falling hard and heavy

A soft roar upon the roof

I'd been thinking for days

Making endless loops

Trying to think of something

To share what was inside me

I bought cards

Looked for boxes

Pretty paper packages

To wrap my sentiments

It never feels like enough 

But I want it to be something

I walked out

Sheltering my prize from the rain

And in the sky I saw a rainbow 

And prayed I could remember 

My phone was dead

So I drove it hard into my heart 

Thinking

Oh please God remember 

And I worried you

Being out so long

And I half lied to keep it a secret 

But I wanted to tell you

I want to share with you everything

And later that night

While you slipped into bed

And I washed my face

It came to mind

That a rainbow

Is seven bands that form a ring

Of which we only ever see a part

And with that thought

I began to write this poem

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I wanted to write you some lyrics

Not that you'd have anything to do with it

Not like you'd make some

Soundcloud track

With a slick low-fi back

Beat that you'd link 

To your friends with a tweet

Framed with fire emoji

When you don't even use twitter

I just wanted to hear how you'd read them

In that perfected galloping way

That makes my insides ache

And want to ride alongside your lines

My words from your lips 

Becoming something like enlightenment

I wanted to fill it with serious word play

Like heart attack dog days

Referencing July heat waves

And the way you make my soul cave

I crave to be blessed with skills and technique which 

I'd write words impressive inspired and unique with

Mesmerizing meter with dynamic fluid flow

Your hazel eyes caught dreaming entranced in lucid glow

But I I'm not a lyricist

I just wrote shitty poems

And nothing ever quite fits

The way I want it to

But I'll try and I'll try 

Because in the end

It's always you

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An idea I had thought was great

Is becoming somewhat a mistake

Seven poems I would write

To endear and delight

You know what fuck limericks

 

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I've had more pleasant car trips 

The heat sinks into my clothes 

Enveloping me until the air I breathe 

Matches what escapes my lungs

I've been gone too long

But I'm on the road that takes me home

Several long hours

one exit

five turns 

And then I stumble through the door

Shuck my shoes 

And collapse into advancing stillness 

Until then my legs ache

From eight folded hours

My mind numbs from the endless lines

And the sun sinks against my right hand 

But it's not the cool dark

that draws me onward 

It's not the soft spell of bed and sleep

It's not even the end of all this

that guides my wheel

It's knowing that when my leaden feet

Cross that distant threshold 

I'll see your beautiful face

Waiting there for me

 

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The moon is full

With Mars riding its heels

It kind of makes me wish

That the alignment of the stars

Actually meant something

Because I want this to have weight

They say something amazing

Is happening far from here

And I wish I could share that with you

Not to say

That I'm unimpressed

With what's before me

You know 

I find I've been seeing

A lot more of the sky

In these last couple years

Imagine that 

The moon is full of

song lyrics you've sung me

And the echoes of the sun 

Yesterday's daylight

And the stories of generations

And our dumb conversations

You said the other day on the phone 

After a long day without you

To lift the bow of my lips

That romantic movie notion

About the moon

And frankly I'm fine

If instead of tin cups and string

We share a pearlescent goddess

Our watchful Luna

Just you, me, and an idea of heaven

 

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I want to kiss

Each of your fingers

One by one in turn

I want to feel the way your lips

Press themselves to mine 

Your skin

The softest I've ever known

Like velvet under my touch

I want to run my hands over it

And feel the beating underneath

The life breath of your body

Rythmic against my touch

I could wrap every inch of me 

Around every part of you 

And still not be close enough

At least I can find happiness

With the thought that

Whatever pieces of you

I choose to kiss

My love is always travelling

Straight to your heart

 

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It was a few days ago

I was outside with you on our familiar trek

Wandering the empty night

The heat making mist peel from the asphalt

Above the ink black pools left by rain

When we looked up at the sky

And saw the moon adorned in rainbows 

It was then I thought to myself 

What a beautiful end to these poems

And I mentioned then the symbolism

Auspicious sevens and endless rings 

It tied everything together

Like a red box wrapped in silver ribbon

- And I want to mention now 

That I'd wanted it to be heart shaped - 

But for some reason

I found myself hesitant to write it 

Like putting down the last words

Seemed altogether too final for my liking

I'd rather it be an endless thing

I want this to be an endless thing 

The loop at the end of a key

Buried in a chest known only to us

A duotone iris encircling an endless sphere 

I want the rest of me to exist 

In a space nestled against this thing we are

And finishing these words

Seems a contradiction to that thought

But perhaps instead I will